What do you do when you go to your 12-week scan and find out your baby died three weeks ago? I hope you never, ever have to experience what we went through yesterday. The pause when the sonographer sees the foetus. The pressing down harder. The questions: have you had any cramping or bleeding? Where…Continue Reading “No heartbeat – 12-week scan”
We will never know what made the difference to tip the balance in our favour this successful IVF cycle. But with two fresh cycles under our belts, and having paid for both due to no NHS funding because I was over 35 years-old, it’s fair to say we didn’t feel hopeful for our third go. …Continue Reading “Seven things we did differently this successful IVF cycle”
I never thought I’d see the day – me, seeing a midwife! Yesterday was our booking-in appointment at my local GP surgery. My husband has been very cute and insisted on being there, even though I said it was likely just to be a form-filling exercise. Actually, it was a good idea he was there….Continue Reading “9+4 – Booking-in appointment”
I do like my good intentions. But when I read back on my last post from a week ago, I realise that’s all they are. I’ve not acted on one of them. I’m not reading more, I’ve not added anything to my gratitude jar (I haven’t even said I’m grateful for being pregnant yet), I…Continue Reading “8+6 – what a week it’s been”
I cannot shake this sense of impending doom. During the last week, I’ve had at least three instances of brown spotting. The last time – two days ago – was enough for me to text my husband in distress, I was so worried. Pregnancy symptoms disappearing Since then, the spotting has eased, but the next…Continue Reading “7+6 – pregnancy anxiety”
All my dreams have come true. I am finally pregnant! So why am I feeling so miserable? Sure, there’s the hormones, the exhaustion, the bloat. But you’d think I’d be able to see beyond that. You’d think I’d be floating on cloud nine, that nothing could phase me now – that I was sorted. When…Continue Reading “6+6 and feeling down”
I’m officially past my 2WW, and am pregnant, apparently. But I have no idea how long this is gonna last with disappearing symptoms and faint pregnancy test lines galore. And with my GP refusing to do me a blood test to check my beta levels, and GENNET being a rather long way away in Prague,…Continue Reading “BFP – weeks 2-8”
I always wished I’d kept a day-by-day dairy of how I felt during the two week wait in my previous two IVF rounds. So, with plenty of time to kill between now and 23 February 2019, here I go! 1DP4DT – we flew home from Prague today. I felt a jabbing sensation on the bottom…Continue Reading “The 2WW – a daily update”
I woke today, as I have done most days in Prague, at around 7am (6am UK time), and put the kettle on. Like I do in Windsor, actually. But today was no ordinary day. Today was egg transfer day. It’s also day four post-egg collection at GENNET. This is new territory for me! Getting ready…Continue Reading “Day four – egg transfer day”
There’s not many days on our IVF journey where we’ve been pleasantly surprised. The highs and lows I can count them on one hand, actually, although the good news was always followed by bad: IVF cycle one – having 30+ follicles on our second stim scan (but only getting three mature eggs – biggest bummer…Continue Reading “Day three post-egg collection”